I had gone all quiet for a while, and that ‘a while’ is better defined as ‘a few months’. What the heck have I been doing all these while? A lot of nothing is precisely what.
Every now and then, I hit a lull in life. There isn’t much to write about when everyday feels as if I were re-living the previous. Having to serve time in the army has been rather draining, and it leaves me with not wanting to do very much else. It kills my mind and makes me lethargic. Other than the odd games here and then, and occasional forays into the external world, I feel as if I have been out of touch with the many on-goings of the world. The military has a way of doing that to you.
The military is a very unique organization. It is a self-contained entity where the physical laws of our world as we know it are suspended and no longer make any sense, much like at the event horizon of a black hole. Madness governs this other world, not logic.
In two months time, that’s all going to change. I’m starting college, and hopefully, returning to the life that all young adults are suppose to have, which come to think of it, I don’t know what that is.
Change is scary.
keep your head up bro. even on the reverse edge of your description, things aren’t much better. some periods, i work in 3 different countries in 7 days. sounds cool? how about never being able to hold on to romantic relationships. always in transient mode. staying at hotels when in my own country, because tomorrow i’m gone anyway i’ve had people in my own city ask if i was a tourist. i’ve had people in zurich tell me i can’t possibly originate from nl because my english sounds like it’s the lang i’ve spoken all my life. in a broad sense… some days i ask myself ‘so, who am i?’
guess it’s time to retire at 24 :)